RANT

Well it's been a short ride. I'm not much of a blogger but I've tried. This format is actually new for me and even though idondisclose personal information on a daily basus, actually writying it down is actually hard. 
Here goes my rant.....it's anoutbour future. I'm not a Hilary supporter. Not that she isn't qualified ....she is .....butbhervambition scares me. What will she not do to acquire that power? That's scary. 
I'm most definitely not a Trump supporter even thou I consider myself a moderate republican.....I believe in abortion but I support small business and entrepreneurship. So I'm not voting for Trump. Now it's usually vote for the lesser of two evils but in this case .....it's the same thing!
I'm writing in Bernie. If we all tight him in he will be elected.But it has to be 3/4 of people voting . Don't vote for the lesser of two evils ....write in Bernie! AND FOR HEAVEN SAKES DONT STSY HOME AND NOT VOTE !
Let's not elect Hilary or Trump. BERNIE ALL THE WAY !!!!

Honestly?

Well, I've always tried to teach honesty to my kids. I apply it to my every day life and I believe in setting an example so my kids can emulate it. Don't get me wrong. I lie at times. It's hard not to. I tell the little white lie here and there. Sometimes to not hurt someones feelings or for some other reason. But, overall I try not to lie. Especially at work. So much so, that it actually cost me my job. I could have lied. I even thought about it and pondered the idea of actually doing it. But in the long run my person rule prevailed and I told the truth and it cost me my job. 

There is a saying that says " the truth shall set you free". Yes, it might, but you better watch what else it will set free. Honesty is a two edged sword. People praise it and preach that you should abide by it but that's not really what they mean. What they mean is that if it's convenient to them ( whomever "them" might be), It will be considered, but they're not gonna take into account that you did not lie and look at the over all picture and say you did the right thing. No......They will come back and punish you for being honest. That's what they will do. So next time any of you want to go the honesty route, Think twice because honesty does NOT pay.

SETTING AN EXAMPLE

                                                                 

        SETTING AN EXAMPLE

                               

I always thought that kids picked up on the way parents did things. You know.....learn by example? I learned that way. My parents never really sat me down and told me "this is how you do things." I saw and I emulated, thus I learned. Speaking with one of my kids recently, it seems that lesson has gone un taught. My life hasn't been easy. I've struggled quite a bit. Don't get me wrong, a lot of it has been self imposed. Hardheadedness. But oh well, I'd like to think that I've finally learned my lesson. Better late than never rite? 

Anyway, speaking with my kids and like I said we've been pretty tight. I haven't worked in over a year and my funds are literally gone. So I'm thinking kids will see this and they'll make an effort to get a job and help so we can survive. Well no ....that hasn't been the case. They seem to think that I have an obligation to support them. Middle child went as far as to tell me that he didn't ask to be born. To which I replied, neither did I and I've made the best of it. 

So it seems that all my hard work and night working extra shifts to pay for their nic nacks so they wouldn't feel like the only ones without the new game or gadgets has gone unappreciated. My mistake. I shoulda left hem without and made them really crave things. Maybe that would have made them more appreciative. Still love my boys, but I'm about to start implementing tuff love.  They're adults. If they want something, they will have to buy it themselves.

LESSON LEARNED TOO LATE

Lesson Learned Too Late

I've never been much of a diciplinarian, so go figure, I never gave my kids tasks to do as they were growing up. Do I regret it ? Yes, I do. I have good kids where kids are concerned and compared to some other kids, but they have no sense of responsibility. I've at a point in my life where I'm entering my second phase of life...the downward spiral phase of life. I'm going to be fifty this year in November and it seems that I'm barely getting my shit together, Or at least finally trying to. I graduate from college (finally and hopefully), this May or June to be exact since I'm missing algebra (again). I was here first time around. I left Algerbra for last and didn't pass it so I stayed out of school for years. I got fired from work for having too many accident while on duty and for not going to Jury Duty, well actually I did go but left to take my mother to an oncologist appointment that got rescheduled and decided to not go back to work. That's another totally different story. Anyway, I'm rambling.........the fact of the mater is I pulled my retirement to finish school but I've run out of money. Here's where the kid responsibility kicks and the clueless mother comes in, My kids know that I have no money or very little of it. I'm not working because of my school schedule and they feel no need to help us survive. I've given them as much as I possibly could. No luxuries, but I got them the new game they wanted when it came out or the game console that was new. Now that I need their assistance to survive, they feel no need to contribute. I did something wrong. I don't want hem to support me for the rest of my life. I will find work as soon as I'm out of school but at least work to help pay the bills. They all have smart phones and tablets and of course they demand Cable and internet but they will not help pay for those things. They still think it's moms responsibility to provide. Before you think I"m being unreasonable for asking this of them, two area out of high school and unemployed , the youngest is about to graduate high school so they aren't not small children or teenagers. One is in his early twenties and the middle one is 19 so they should be at least paying for their own stuff. But no. They are not . So parents, give your kids some responsibility. Start early, it's something that should be taught at a young age. They can't start with just picking up their cloths or having it up or helping wash their own dish after eating. Minor things, but things that will go a long way to teaching them to be responsible. Make them earn a little bit as they grow up. The lemonade stand bit or something where they learn to appreciate the act of working and the reward of being able to buy something with your own money. I never did, I just gave it to them. I was taught to earn my money, but I thought my mother was cruel for making me do so. Now I see the wisdom behind it and wish I could do things all over again.  Too late.

New Start

Well people I have been very bad. Again, being an incidental mother plays off. I have forgotten to post. I am new at blogging and not very big at sharing personal info ....so this is hard . 
Responsibility is something we should all teach our children. It is essential to growing in to a  good adult . I definitely lack in that department . I like deadlines....it makes me work harder and it gets my creative juices going . I do not set a good example for my kids ...not in that department but I should .
How many of us actually do , as parents , or do we forget out shortcomings and lie to our kids in an attempt to look better. Wish this parenting business came with instruction. Maybe we would raise better kids. 
I am throwing this in here ....people please do not vote for Trump ....he reminds me of something petulant child and very bad parenting . As for Hilary....hmmm? I'm not sure that adage of the better even applies here. I'm writing in Bernie as a candidate election day .....I'm not voting for either one of those two .....

I'M DOOMED!!

Well I've reached a new low...... I'm computer illiterate according to my children. I don't have the capability of being tech savy according to them.  But then what do you expect. I use the computer at home sporadically (Because thet hog it all day long). They place passwords on everything....everyone has their own account on the computer so when I long in I have to bypass of sign in as myself to get to what I want to get to. I JUST WANNA USE THE COMPUTER !!!!!!! No passcode or passwords.... I just want to sit down and do what I have to do without having to go or switch anything. I'm feeling more and more like the cluless mother I've always thought I am. I'm being proven right uuuggghhhh!!!!!

DEFINING CLUELESS

Well here is what I mean by clueless and incidental. You may agree or disagree with me but this is what I'm seeing.
It's early morning and I'm dropping off my youngest off at school. As I'm leaving the campus, there's this young girl across that street carrying a small child, Newborn by the looks of it. It's about 62 degrees and she's carrying this baby like it's some sort of rag doll. The baby is dressed in a onesie and nothings else. Momma is wearing short sleeve shirt and jeans, It might not be cold for her but in my opinion, it's pretty chilly for a newborn. This is where the clueless and the incidental come into play. As I mentioned before, not all of us are born to be mothers. She was very young ( I know, no excuse), but still, she was alone, which I'm assuming that she was left on her own to do the mothering business. She probably does not have the foresight to think that the child is more than likely going to get sick on her ( the clueless part). She's also been thrown into this situation ( having to look after a child  she bore because she probably didn't have the mindset to think that she could and would get pregnant if she wasn't careful.
Yes I know that sex is prevalent in all media and everywhere we look and our children have grown up seeing and listening to sex in all sort of manner. In the media, in advertisement, in magazines in the games we buy them. It's out there and it can't be subdued or hidden. The problem is, I don't think we are teaching our children what they need to know. Teenagers are still getting pregnant, High schools are full of your females  that are pregnant. So they're seeing the sex and sexuality everywhere but is it connecting with their mentality? Where's the sex education. What are we missing? That is my question. Any input would be welcome. Let me know what you all think.